Dreams.

  Weeks ago, Lisa dreamed that her hair got cut. She dreamed about it, a lot of times. The ending of the dream was always her saying "Its okay, it'll grow back" though she felt remorse. After getting that kind of dreams frequently, she started worrying&asked her mum but her mum explained in a way that it wasn't that clear to her& she couldn't get the picture of it so she decided Google it &found herself some answers. It said there "rambut adalah mahkota kita. Apabila bermimpi tentang rambut dipotong, ia kemungkinan petunjuk di masa depan bahawa anda akan tidak dihargai oleh orang yang disayangi seperti, keluarga,kekasih/rakan baik anda atau anda akan dikhiyanati atau anda akan difitnah". When she read each sentence of the description, she got scared but a part of her told herself that its okay, its just a dream cause as they say "Mimpi hanyalah mainan tidur syaitan"&probably the description was all bullshit.
  She spent her days normally until one night, Lisa got into a fight with her sister just because of a silly broadband. It wasn't much about the broadband, it was about the fact that her sister did not respect her things. That morning, her sister asked for the broadband&she gave it but with hesitation of course. The sister said she had a presentation & she needed to use it though she was thinking to herself why the hell does she needed the broadband to do her presentation, she gave it to her to avoid any arguments that could ruin both their days. The sister said, she'd pass it back when she's done with her presentation. That afternoon, she went out to see her boyfriend that was all dressed up in a black shirt&black pants looking so charming after graduation! They went out for lunch&went job hunting with her two girlfriends. She got home that evening&met her mum and asked whether her sister was home&the mum answered "No, but she came home a few hours back and left again with Dad to KL". She wondered if her sister had left her broadband so she went in the sister's room&checked&found that it wasn't there. She got pissed. Hours after that, night came along.. As Lisa was watching TV outside, she heard her dad's footsteps coming up the stairs&when she saw her dad, she asked where's Linda as that was her sister's name. Her mum answered for her dad, "She went out for dinner, she'll be home late" &that was it. Lisa texted her sister saying that Linda always said that their eldest sister doesn't know how to respect people's things but like she does. At approx 10pm, her sister came home&Lisa asked for her Broadband. Linda got mad and started doing the thing that she does best at which is 'MEMBEBEL'. The thing with Linda is that, she loves to blab about things. Her mouth is as though a machine gun that could kill ur ears&would make u feel like u rather jump out of the window rather than listening to her blab! Anyways, Lisa asked for her broadband and Linda hesitated on giving just cause she thought Lisa's text was rude&when Lisa kept on asking, Linda got the broadband out of her Laptop bag and threw it across the hall. That was the last straw. Linda got mad and burst and pulled Linda's hair(yes, what a typical girl fight) and Linda attacked back by slapping her face&Lisa slapped back. Lisa ended the fight by saying "GO DIE" and locked herself in her room. Lisa heard Linda's voice still blabing about how rude Lisa was and she heard Linda's footsteps walking down the stairs so she assumed, as usual Linda must have gotten out of the house. Linda might be 29years old&even has a son but I guess old habits die hard.
  As soon as her sister left, Lisa's mom knocked on Lisa's door no, not knock but banged the door. Lisa opened and saw her mum looking so furiously and started screaming at her and started slapping Lisa on the face and started defending Linda. For the record, Linda&Lisa's mum is always on Linda's side no matter what, not saying what Lisa did was right but there's no fairness in every battle between all four of her kids.
Her mom took her phone from her hands and she asked Lisa to ask for forgiveness or she wont forgive her. Till that extend! Dammmnnn, Lisa felt numb and used her dad's phone to call Linda but she dint answer the phone. While Lisa was using the phone, she heard her mum saying to her dad that Lisa will be the one who will cause so much pain to both of them. Lisa was streaming with tears as she felt useless&unwated&feeling that her parents made a mistake on having her in their lives. She felt 'unappreciated'. Her mom called her a liar, caused so much problems, basically for short saying 'Anak yang tak berguna'. She felt so upset only god knew. Her dad told her softly to go to her room as Linda dint answer the phone. Lisa went into her room crying&wished it was only a dream. She dint know what to do. How could her mum say what she said to her? How could she forget the good things she has done? Her mum had every right to be mad but she dint have to say everything that has been said. Lisa couldn't stop feeling useless&unwanted. Hours after that, she saw Linda's car coming through the gate. Lisa waited for her by the stairs and as soon as she saw Linda, she apologized and Linda refused to talk to her and said she dint want to even look at her face. Lisa followed Linda till Linda's room&saw her parents in her room waiting for Linda. Linda locked the door. Lisa went straight to her room, and seeing her parents in Linda's room made her feel more unwanted. She started saying to herself "Aren't I their kid too? Apahal nak be so berat sebelah. Dua-dua salah apahal nak be totally on her side? Tahu lah perempuan tu a single mother, no husband, still depending on bah&mama&she's older than me. Kenapa kena respect the older ones je and the youngest tak seharusnya get respect from the eldest too? Kesian, kesian? UR ELDEST DAUGHTER PUN GOT DIVORCED XDE PUN KAU NAK KESIAN KAN DIA! U DONT ONLY HAVE ONE KID. U HAVE FOUR!" Haih, thats the thing about some families. They just dont know how to be fair at times. 'Their mother never failed on being a good mother to her children, but she failed on being fair'. So, to relate it with the dream and her drama... She felt unappreciated by her family just like how her dream was explained. Some may say, dreams hanyalah mainan tidur, but i truly think its sometimes a sign of whats going to happen in the future.

I wish things could be different.

X
Farisya


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