The clock just strucked 1O pm and here I am laying down on my bed with so much emotions in me. Did some studying and got to my wedding speech for kak jihan's wedding. Went to Rasta with Kak Liana yesterday to do the rangka of the speech. At first, I dint know how to even begin my speech. I tried so hard to reminisce the good times but I couldn't get myself to remember. It was totally different from Kak Fa's wedding that happened 4years back which I also had to do a speech. It went incredibly well. I did my speech all by myself and it even finished within minutes as I had so much to say and share. Anyways, while I was in Rasta I got the idea of what to say FINALLY! Then, today I took my laptop and started to write and form a perfect speech from the rangka I made and got everything together and suddenly my eyes started to get teary as I was all into the speech. It was like a memory flash back of when me and kak jihan back when I was small when we were pretty tight. When I was so attached to kak jihan once before and I actually started thinking to myself of all the fights and arguments that I had with my sister over small lil' things that made our relationship distant. Though we faught A LOT but no matter what she's still my sister whom I'll always love unconditionally. No words could describe. I'm so happy for she has found the man of her dreams that knows how to appreciate her, who knows how to treat her right so the opposite from her 'past'. I'm so happy that God temukan both of them and made a path for them both to go through together. I wanna be as lucky as Kak Jihan to be married to a loving husband like Abang Munir. As for the speech, it's finally finished! I hope it turns out good. I can't wait for the wedding!
<3
Monday, April 25, 2011
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Being Independant
Got a job at XIXILI, I only lasted there about 3 hours. When it was time for my break, I left and never came back! They were all pretty racist as they were all chinese. They looked at me like I was trash though they were the ones who hired me. They weren't that helpful either. I QUIT and went to Padini and got myself a job with Nadiah&Syaza. It's been 5days there&I'm certainly enjoying every moment of it. Everybody's friendly and as crazy as I am. We all fit in well and Yes, I am happy working there though the 8hours stand is killing my body esp my feet&back! Now I know how hard it is to earn money. I actually realized how hard my dad works to earn a living for his family. Daaammmmnnn... It's certainly an experience that U just cant buy. There's so many different people working there with me&the best part is I learn the differences between my life&theirs as most of them aren't living easily. We share experiences&stories untuk diiktibarkan. I've learned so much and appreciate more of what I have&how I am actually lucky to be in this family. <3 <3 <3
So I aint RTM-ing! ;P
I LOVE MY JOB !
X
farisya
Monday, November 1, 2010
HAPPY NOVEMBER LOVES!
cant believe how time flows so fast&now its November.
Can't wait to end tomorrow for it will be the last day of exams&last day of school.
Since all of my friends will be working this holidays, I'll be working Full-Time in a department of RTM
RTM=Rehat,Tidur&Makan
&wait till November to end and December 8th to be over & be a Full-time Girlfriend to my baby
Faez Hendra <3 <3
pffttt -____-
how interesting it will be waiting in the mist of lonliness till December 8th
Sighhhh....
Mama&I are okay now! Everything at home is back to normal but still not in talking terms with Kak Jihan but thats not important, that'll heal in time. The most important thing is me and my Mama are fine now. She sent me to school this morning&it was the 1st after the incident and 1st being alone together after these past few days of not spending even a single minute with each other. As I reached school, i took her hand&salam and burst into tears when I said 'Sorry'. She hugged me and said she was sorry too and told me that she loves me. We ended the conversation as i stepped out from the car and told her I love her and closed the door of the car and walked straight ahead and saw Yaya and I quickly hugged Yaya and told her what happened and as always, though I was very over whelmed by what happened my tears sucked back once I entered the school gate. I was so extremely glad that everything between my Mum was finally over. Big smiles today&Filled with Love!
<3
<3
The 'Heartbreaks&Heartaches'
I was going through a friend of mine's ex's FB Profile. I don't know why she suddenly popped out from my head. Never have I met her before, only heard stories about her through my friend's bestfriend which is my good friend! Anyways, she wasn't even in my friends list so obviously her profile was private. I saw her details on the corner of her profile&found that she had a blog. I opened it&read. She was expressing how she was in pain of not being with him(the ex,my friend) Though I've never known her, I actually felt like crying reading. It was like I could feel her pain. Reading her blog made me feel like going to her&just hug her&tell her that everything was going to be okay as time will heal. I understand the pain as I have felt it before&I guess that's one of the reason why I'm as sensitive as this. Before, I went to her profile&went to her blog.. I was on Facebook and saw my newsfeed flooding with a friend of mine's status'. Her status' were filled with so much sadness. Went to her wall, asked if she was doing alright&found that she just broke up with her boyfriend that she has been with for quite some time. So much pain going on. I know it feels like the world fell on top of you when U get ur heartbroken. I know it feels like something just stabbed u on the heart. Questions like
"WHY DID HE DO THIS TO ME? WHY DID THIS HAPPENED TO ME? WHAT DID I DO WRONG? AFTER ALL THAT WE'VE BEEN THROUGH. WHY?"
These questions will fill up ur mind. You'd also think to urself who could ever replace his shoes. Well, in life, we fall in Love, thats normal&we also hurt ourselves over Love. We meet so many people in this world&Love is a gamble too. Sometimes ur lucky&sometimes ur just not. Bagaikan pepatah yang berkata "Yang patah tumbuh. Yang hilang, berganti". Hidup penuh dengan cabaran dan juga dugaan yang melanda kita. Jika kita tidak diuji, maka kita tidak akan belajar tentang erti hidup. Allah S.W.T menguji keimanan dan juga kesabaran kita kerana Dia sayang ke hambanya. Who ever said Life was easy? Who ever did say Love was easy either? Whoever did... ONE WORD
BULLSHIT.
Never have I loved break-ups. Well, the once that were worth it, i dont give a damn but the ones that I cherish, fuck it hurts. Talking about this, reminds me that how much I love this amazing relationship I have now, I'll just never know if I'll lose it one day. Every relationship that U start.. plant in ur mind to prepare with the 'what ifs'. Things just sometimes just dont go how we plan it to be. Sometimes, it ends. Nothing is constant in life. Even the world's going to end one day . When? Only god knows. Kita hanya merancang, Dia yang menentukannya. When I said, plant in ur mind to prepare with the what ifs.. Yes, prepare but still enjoy the relationship. Don't be too paranoid&cautious too. If things did end.. we cry it all out&carry ourselves back up&look straight&keep on walking forward&let time do all the work to heal&U will move on...
For everything that God has tested U, Dia menjanjikan ganjaran. Heartbreaks&Heartaches is just part of life that U'll learn. I do not know much about this thing called Life but I do know a lil' that I've learned&experienced some to share with the rest.
<3
Farisya
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